I recently turned 40 years old but I don't feel a day over 29. Well maybe a day or two with the new aches and pains but I won't complain. I made no big hoopla over my birthday this year (but everyone knows a celebrate just a little longer than I should). Not because I was ashamed or upset about my age but because my focus changed a little.
Yes, I do love celebrate my birthday and my life. I love even more that the Lord has granted me one more day, another year and always a second chance. Although my birthday was uneventful, it was hugely joyful. I planned to have no plan this year. Actually I planned to stay in the bed all day but the day was too beautiful to stay indoors. My plan was a day of freedom, no obligations. Sometimes, the best gift can just be being at peace. I enjoyed those 4 minutes and then got up to take the girls to school, grab some breakfast, do some shopping, pay some bills, tried to go to the show didn't work out, dropped the girls to a meeting at our church, gulped hot coffee at a local cafe', came back to pick them up and melted into the bed. Happy Birthday to me!
But all day I was so grateful to feel the love of many family members and friends as my phone rang constantly. I smiled a little each time a text popped up, a voicemail chimed or emails came through.
I did choose to take a few hours to spend with the Lord in just quiet before I left the house. I felt that I had accomplished my goal, sitting at the feet of my father; resting in His presence and tuning out the demands of the world.
Since the onset of 2010 I have been running like the energizer bunny, I sleep but don't rest. And recently I found that my stress level was at a all time high, when my hair began to fall out. I held the stress inside so long that something had to give. I thank Him for keeping from something more severe.
This month I chose to say goodbye to all the stress and stressors. I choose to take command and not be at a demand. I stopped for a minute and reflected on what is important to me. Cause when I dead and gone, life will go on.
This year is proving to be greater than the years before. The Lord is moving FaithWithHeels forward and He needs me to be in the best health and emotional state this year. I keep hearing Him say to me "Martha, Martha, thou art careful and troubled about many things: But one thing is needful: and Mary hath chosen that good part, which shall not be taken away from her. "
Now just imagine Jesus calling you Martha, when you want to be Mary; when you want to choose the good part; when you think you are helping. He told me that he wants me, not just service from me but me.
I realize that 40 ain't so bad actually it is all good. It is good that I am able to bless the Lord every day I wake up. It is good that wisdom and understand come with age. It is good that revelation and celebration come with age. And it is good that elation comes from knowing that you are loved at any age.
Thanks to you all who have blessed my life these 40 years: Both of my moms, both of my grandmothers, my father, my children, my husband (smile), my entire family, my new found family, my friends through thick and thin, all the new friends I have made and will make this year. You have all contributed to making me be the best me and I am still in process and progress, you ain't seen nothing yet!
MiVida es De Oro!
My Life is Golden!
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