Monday, October 27, 2008
This week, I have got to say "FOR REAL?"!!!! Oprah has "Ah Hah!" I have "FOR REAL?"
Just when you step over a puddle, you realize you are in the middle of the ocean. And you can quote me on this one. It is not that I expect to sail through life care free and that everything will be so easy. It is just that I want, need, and really deserve a break. I shouldn't say deserve, but desire.
It is hard for me to list these moments, without totally exposing some of the culprits, but you know who you are. And to you I say, "FOR REAL?!!!"
There are times in my life when I really don't understand what people don't get. I guess that because I am Christian, because I have been changed, because I am maturing and because I don't carry a gun, that gives you authority to do, say or treat me any kind of way. Not so!
I am surely a child of God and know that I have been brought out of darkness, into His light. And since He has been so gracious to me, I must extend that grace to you. It is only fair. Because I do not yell, scream and fight like I used to, doesn't mean I won't go to war (in the spirit, of course). I will cry out to God on behalf of both you and me. And because I have grown; spiritually and naturally means that God is truly doing a work in me and that I must understand that you are a work too. And even though I don't have a permit to carry a concealed weapon because of the Blood of Jesus over my life I am still packing (the HOLY GHOST, of course).
It is truly amazing to me when I look back and realize that my reaction to the some things do not affect me in the same manner. I believe it is because I have Faith in God and I know without a doubt that since He has called me to do His will, that things won't be easy. Wearing 4 inch heels is difficult enough on dry land, try it when you are stepping out of the boat and walking water.
I am glad that I am in this place at this time in Mi Vida (my life). A time when I can see the storm, step out of the boat and DARE to walk on water. I have not always been here. I have not always felt confident enough to do something so radical. I have not always felt the love of others, probably cause I didn't love me enough to demand better. I have not always been so open and honest, for fear of losing someone. I have not always been so generous, because of what it would cost me. The Bible states that "Perfect love casts out all fear". I believe that although I am not perfect, I can have and experience "Perfect Love".
To those who still don't get it, I will still say "FOR REAL?!" but I will take the time to enlighten you. I will share my thoughts and feelings with you. I will still love and support you. I will still be a shoulder to cry on, but you might hear me whisper, "For Real?"
MiVida es de Oro!
(My Life is Golden!)
Shoes Steve Madden ~ LOLLAA